Selina Skies

May 06, 2023 10:23 PM
Right now, it was Selina’s job to celebrate the end of term. And that was what she was doing. The incident with Xavier was as resolved as it could be, in that he had been sent away for further treatment, and the steps that had led to this happening had been investigated. It was never easy when something went badly wrong. In some ways, it became all consuming—for several days, dealing with the fallout of the incident had been Selina’s number one priority, and normal responsibilities and previous carefully scheduled plans had had to be roughly shoved aside to make room for talking to parents, investigating the incident, arranging counseling sessions… But at the same time, life didn’t stop. The rest of the world did not grind to a halt because of one person’s emergency. Being deputy head was always like keeping a series of plates spinning, and even this didn’t mean the rest got put away or could be allowed to crash down. There were exam procedures to run (with a tiny, overlapping hitch of removing one of the candidates from the roster), there was the bonfire to arrange. Selina’s heart hurt, but those feelings had to be packed away in the interests of keeping everything moving. Rather than having an acute attack of tears or sorrow, she carried it like a chronic weight throughout the week—the deep, dragging and ever present sensation of something being very wrong. The feeling spiked whenever her mind circled back around and actively thought about the situation, but then she put it away again.

It was both on her mind and distant from it as she prepared to welcome students to the bonfire. This was about everyone. It was a celebration. It needed her attention. But the ritual she’d been trying to work out had only just crystalised in the last few days, and she couldn’t say how connected it was to recent events.

“Good evening,” she greeted the assembled students. “Welcome to the end of term bonfire. As usual, we will have food available, including items you can cook over the small fires around the edge. We will be reserving the large fire in the middle for setting positive intentions.” Selina indicated the large bonfire in the middle. Around it, at a distance, sat smaller ones to make cooking easier, and so as to not muddle the purpose of the main fire—if fire was power and purity, then shoving a baked potato or a marshmallow into it wasn’t really appropriate. “Whilst fire can be destructive, and can be used to burn away things you want rid of, in many cultures, fire is seen as offering power. The idea of burning a wish in fire is said to transport the idea out of this realm, and lend it strength. Tonight, you are encouraged to make a wish on behalf of a classmate.” This was the part that had come to her in the last few days. The idea of setting a positive intention using the fire had been knocking around her mind for a long time, but teenagers often wished for selfish or unrealistic things for themselves—wishing someone would date you didn’t respect their free will, and wishing that you could get the best grades in the class couldn’t work if everyone wanted it. Not that the wishes would really have the power to make those things happen, but it didn’t feel like a positive act when Selina had so many concerns about what might be wished for. Hopefully, by transferring the focus to other people, they would give it more careful thought. It also carried a message of caring and community, which felt like a stronger message to send. “This ritual is optional. You may choose not to participate, or to offer wishes for multiple people. Other than that, you are free to enjoy the fire, socialise with friends, and enjoy the snacks.

“As a reminder, it’s a minimum of three per tent and no maximum. Please register your group with an adult by eight pm so we know that everyone is accounted for and can start assigning tents.

“Enjoy your evening.”
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Bonabelle Row

May 10, 2023 12:38 AM
OOC: Contains spoilers for the linked post. Tenting plans confirmed with Lavender's and Valentine's authors.

Disdain for other characters.
BIC:

It hadn't been long enough for Bonabelle to feel like she was keeping secrets from her girlfriend, but it was getting close. With the end of the school year, the end of school at all, and everything else going on, it was reasonable that she hadn't gone straight to Valentine after her conversation with Stanley. She'd taken the opportunity of time to swear him to secrecy, even from Wally, and then froze. What was she supposed to do? Normally Uncle Killian was her go-to, but she wasn't about to tell him about this particular issue. She'd thought about going to Ema, and she would have if she'd been confident that everything was perfect in paradise for them on the issue. As a result, she'd mostly ended up mulling it all over in silence, avoiding leaving her dorm as much as possible and trying to focus her energy into her studies and wholly avoid any sort of emotions. Valentine, well-used to the way Bonabelle got before exams, probably didn't think much of it at all.

She'd made up her mind to talk to Val at the bonfire because it was about the longest she could put off the conversation without it exploding out of her and she wanted to give the Teppenpaw the opportunity to opt out of sharing a tent with her if she wished. Plus, she knew she'd need to discuss it before they retired for the night, as Lavender Brockert definitely wasn't going to be interested in overhearing that particular conversation. The girl was preppy at best and snooty at worse, neither of which had any place in a conversation like this.

Then, Bonabelle had found out that it wouldn't just be herself, her girlfriend, and her girlfriend's prudeish best friend. It would be any other girls without a place to go. She already knew she couldn't avoid having a third person in the tent, and right now she preferred it anyway, but now it was too much. Now it went back on all the same old feelings she'd yelled up and down about to Stanley. And if the only thing that made her any different from anyone else in Valentine's life was that sometimes they made out, then that just wasn't going to work. Bonabelle kept her feelings close to her chest but that didn't mean she didn't have any. If anyone knew that, she would've expected Val to.

She did her best to get steadied and calm before approaching Val from elsewhere in the crowd of students. She didn't know where exactly Stanley was, but she avoided looking for him. In fact, she avoided looking around at all, just in case he was looking for her too.

"Hey," she said when she found Val. Normally she would've taken her hand; the distance she kept between them was palpable to her and she wondered if Val could feel it too. "Can we walk? We need to talk about some stuff."

When they had extricated themselves from the throngs of classmates, Bonabelle began to doubt herself. This was their last real night at Sonora ever. This was it. No going back, just looking back, from here on out. That felt poignant and salient in more ways than one and she held onto that as she decided with a certain determination to move forward. No going back, no looking back, just moving forward.

Except... how did you tell your polyamorous girlfriend that you might have cheated on her with her boyfriend's brother but you weren't totally sure because of the aforementioned girlfriend's boyfriend? How did you tell your girlfriend that you felt like a favorite jumper on a clothesline strung up with a dozen of them without sounding like you weren't cool with the aforementioned polyamorous thing?

"I have a lot of thoughts and they are all tied up with feelings and I need to get them all out at once, so please let me finish before you say anything," she began, looking hard at Val before scrunching her eyes shut for better access to her brain words. It felt like trying to get at a plate of neeps and tatties stuffed inside a crystal ball with a pair of chopsticks - nothing was in the right place, nothing made sense, and nothing was getting anywhere. She took a big inhale and let words come out when she exhaled.

"Stanley and I made out and I wasn't sure if that was alright with you but I really like him, and then I found out that you just invited anyone at all who wants in to join our tent and I feel like I'm just one of your many friends and if that's the case I just wish you'd tell me and I love you so much but maybe I think I kind of wonder if maybe we were better as friends."

Her eyes and her mouth opened together, a look of shock popping onto her face as she realized what she'd said. Then it all crumpled into despair. "Tell me I'm wrong," she begged in a whisper. "Can you really convince me we aren't just friends who kiss too?" Her voice broke every few words. It wasn't fair. None of this was fair. "Can you honestly say we're not going to just be flatmates who share a room after this?" She was begging. She didn't want to be begging. Anger rose up in her throat again. "I don't want to lose you, but I don't even know what I'm hanging onto right now."
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Valentine Duell

May 13, 2023 9:45 AM
Tests were over and the bonfire was here! Is was now officially time to forget about school and studying and just have fun again! Finally! Valentine stopped on the edge of the pitch to just soak it all in for a moment. It was a glorious occasion, and would also be her last here at Sonora. But that was okay, while she loved this place and all of the people here, she was moving on with her favorite people by her side.

She strolled into the people already milling about, smiling and waving, making small bits of conversation as she moved around the field. She eventually found the person she was looking for. It seemed like Bannabelle had been looking for her as well, but there was something a bit off. There was a gulf between them, she didn't like it much.

When her girlfriend talked, it sounded a little ominous. Still, Val smiled, " You can always talk to me. What's up?" Once they were away from the crowds, Val nodded at Bonabelle's request to just let her talk. Val listened intently. Val listened to the anguish that poured out of her girlfriend. Once Bonabelle had said what she wanted to say, there was only one response that Val could give her.

Valentine wrapped her arms around Banabelle and in a voice on the edge of tears itself, " You are wrong, and I am so sorry. You are special to me and I love you so much. I know I haven't been… There was so much studying…" It all sounded like poor excuses when she said it out loud. "I'm sorry I haven't been there for you like I should have been. Tell me what I can do to make it up to you."

The Teppenpaw pulled back a little bit So that she could gaze into Bonabelle's eyes. "You were my first real friend, and you've stuck with me through everything. I don't know what I would do without you." Then her eyes glinted playfully the way they did on occasion, "Now tell me, was Stanley a better kisser than me? Do I need to work on my skills?"
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Bonabelle Row

May 14, 2023 10:47 PM
Bonabelle became a newtonian fluid when Valentine put her arms around her: she was altogether solid under pressure, stiff and uncertain, and melted into a puddle of liquid in the grass. Val always had had that effect on Bonabelle but it was new now to feel like it was both inexplicably dangerous and completely safe. She was crying into her girlfriend's hair and it felt right to be there with her. She was starting to understand what polyamory meant, she thought, if she could feel this way about two people so strongly. She gave a soft chuckle at Val's question about who was the better kisser.

"Not better," she promised. "Just different." She cocked her head, scrutinizing the Teppenpaw's expression. "I really like him, Val. I don't know why or what happened or when that happened but I really really like him. I think we're going to date. Is that okay?"

And like a balloon popping on a sharp objct, suddenly letting out all its air at once, Bonabelle's anger drained from her stomach. She knew as she asked that she already knew exactly what she wanted and that she was going to get it because she was cared about. She was going to date Stanley and she was going to date Val and Val would date Wally probably. It would be weird and unorthodox and it would require more explanations than Bonabelle had the energy or interest in giving but it would be perfect and loving.

"I just... I need you to think of me when I'm involved," Bonabelle said softly, looking down. She felt selfish for even asking. "When you're living up your own social life or when you're with a different partner, you do you. But you didn't just invite people to share a tent with you, Val, you invited them into my space too. I just need you to think of me and... I think I need you to prioritize that? Merlin, that sounds awful. But if I'm not just going to be a friend, I need you to think of me ahead of what your friends need. Or at least let me know ahead of time so I'm in on the shenanigans."
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Valentine Duell

May 15, 2023 8:40 PM
Bonabelle was so wonderful, and even her light bit of laughter at Val's attempt at levity was music to her ears. It was wonderful, but she couldn't shake the feeling that there was something else coming. Something else that brought her girlfriend to her in such a state. The Teppenpaw couldn't help but smile as the Aladren talked about Stanley and then asked her for permission. That was good and proper, except for one thing. "I'm super happy for you." She responded, "And of course it is okay, I've been telling you that you were allowed to date other people if you wanted to. I love you and I also love Wally. It would be horrible of me to say you couldn't experience that same sort of love. My love for Wally doesn't detract from my love of you, and I hope you will be able to say the same with Stanley. But, if it does... that's alright. I want you to be happy more than anything else."

As Bonabelle talked more, Val dropped her head in shame. Bonabelle was absolutely right, and she had been a terrible girlfriend. Thoughts were swirling about her mind, justifying her actions, but they didn't hold any weight against what she had done. "I'm sorry," she whispered quietly, "You're right. I should have checked in with you. I promise I'll do better." She knew Bonabelle wasn't a big people person, and knew she wouldn't have liked it. "I can't send them all out now, but if you would prefer, I could arrange a single for you and another for me." Bonabelle might prefer that over all the people, she'd probably prefer it over sharing with Lavender at all. Val would need her own because there was no way she could stay in the tent with all those people while Bonabelle was off and alone.
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