Oz Spellman
September 04, 2022 2:00 AM
No big deal by Oz Spellman
Oz was not ready for labels. Not for himself, and not fo what was going on with Xavier. He did have to acknowledge though that something was going on. Making out with Xav had become a habit, and he was willing to admit (quietly, and to himself) that he wanted him. He just didn't want to do any of the processing about what that meant.Did that mean he had something to tell or not? It wasn't like he had any announcements to make. He did NOT have a boyfriend, and he didn't need to come out if he wasn't gay - and given how much he also liked girls, he definitely wasn't. But he was doing something, something that was starting to feel like a secret, and he had promised someone he wouldn't have any more of those. He kept telling himself that didn't mean telling everything. There was such a thing as tmi, and he definitely didn't want to know every last thing Henry got up to with the luxury of a solo room. But if Henry was kissing someone, he would want to know. If Henry was kissing a guy... Oz was pretty sure he would freak about that, because it was on the list of things that people punched you in the face for, and Henry absolutely was not allowed to do things off that list. He liked to think he wouldn't freak out about the guy thing in and of itself, except he thought that - prior to meeting Xavier - he would have, which was just another mark on the list of reasons why he, Oz, was human garbage. Henry had always been more sensible than him though. And he didn't need to worry about Oz getting punched the same way Oz had to worry about him, so hopefully Henry had no reason to freak out. Right?
Oz had left it all through Christmas, because he didn't want to ruin it if Henry did get weird, but now the holidays were done, and mom was back at work, and it was just a few days until they went back to Sonora. Oz walked into his and Henry's room, where he found his brother reading (because of course he was). For a second, Oz kicked a stray shirt around the floor.
"Hey," he said. "You know I get bored and do random stuff sometimes?" He wasn't sure that was the best intro. It didn't exactly paint his decision in the best light. He thought about Xavier telling him what a good person he was, and how that made him feel. He didn't want to lump Xavier in with his reckless choices. He hadn't said 'stupid' for precisely that reason - this didn't feel stupid. But stupid decisions rarely did... And Henry was probably thinking the worst of him now, so he hurried on. "I made out with Xav. A few times. And it's fun, and none of the girls at Sonora are all that interesting or interested, so I'll probably keep doing it. But it's not a big deal or anything."
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