Headmistress Sadi Powell

April 02, 2010 3:04 AM
It was a beautiful evening. Sunlight streamed in through the windows of the Cascade Hall, creating a dazzling display of ripples and rainbows as the final rays of the day were reflected by the waterfalls lining the room. Sadi had made her way to Sonora in her usual fashion: Apparition. She was wearing her customary plain brown robes and her graying hair was fastened, as usual, in a neat knot at the nape of her neck. She stood quietly in the far corner of the room as returning students noisily made their way into seats, and the first years were gathered by the door. The new students were greeted by Professor Dakin, newly instated Deputy Headmistress. It was the first time in a good long while that Sonora’s Head and Deputy had been of the same gender, but with Henry Flatt incapacitated and the majority of her staff being relatively new to the school, Sadi had little choice. Rowan had applied for the position, and she had been accepted. She was good with the students; while the Headmistress watched her new Deputy collecting the first years together, she was confident they would make an excellent team.

When all the wagons were empty, and every student had managed to find his or her way into the Hall, Sadi joined her colleagues at the staff table (although she stood in front of it, rather than sat behind) and called for attention. “Settle down, please,” she said, gentle but commanding, as always. When there was enough quiet to be heard without the assistance of charms, Sadi graced the students with a smile. “To our older students, welcome back. To our first year students, welcome to Sonora Academy.” With Rowan’s assistance, each new student was handed a goblet full of a clear, bubbling liquid. When swallowed, this potion would turn the drinker’s skin the corresponding color of the House to which they now belonged: blue for Aladren, yellow for Teppenpaw, red for Crotalus, and brown for Pecari.

Most students enjoyed watching the sorting of the first years. Sadi couldn’t deny that the event had held her interest more thoroughly when she’d been Head of Crotalus, and so could identify her future students, but it was nevertheless an entertaining spectacle. Therefore she waited patiently until all the students had settled once more before returning to her address.

“As always, the prairie elves have provided us with a magnificent feast,” she said, hoping to reel in the attention of those whose minds had wandered. “However, first I would like to make a few short announcements. Our returning student will probably have noticed that Professor Dakin, our Care of Magical Creatures professor, has taken on the role of Deputy Headmistress. She will also be Head of Teppenpaw House.” The fact that their government-appointed Deputy from last year brought only relief remained unspoken. “Secondly, I would like you all to welcome Ichabod Linn, who will be teaching Divinations," Sadi gestured to her new collegaue at the staff table. She had personal reservations about the subject, but it had seemed very popular last time it was available at the school. Perhaps it was time it was re-instated. "And," Sadi continued, "Janette Wolfe, who will be your new transfiguration professor.” Sadi had high hopes that this professor would stay around longer than a year. She almost believed it, but student rumours about the position being cursed refused to leave her thoughts entirely.

“Finally, I would like to present this year’s Head Boy and Head Girls with their badges.” The announcement of who would receive these titles had been made at the end of last year, but the Opening Feast made it official. “Could Talen and Lutece cone forward?” Sadi distributed the badges with a smile and ‘well done’ for each student. She waited for the applause to die down before attracting attention for the last time that evening. “Thank you for listening. I have no more announcements to make, so you are free to enjoy your food.” With a wave of Sadi’s hand, each and every table was suddenly groaning under a multitude of dishes, plates and jugs, each filled to the brim with one or another of an impressive variety of foods and drinks. Enough, indeed, that no student was ever likely to.
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Taylor Li

April 04, 2010 8:17 PM
Summer, as previous summers had been ever since Taylor had told her mother that she no longer wanted to pursue acting or modeling or the such, was boring and uneventful. She had filled the time with doing the things that she had always wanted to do. She attended some college courses. She went to science camp. She had made some friends there. But even with all that it felt like something was missing. She just couldn’t quite put her finger on what. Perhaps, this year she would find something that gave her a better sense of purpose. Maybe.

Brushing back a strand of her dark hair, now a bit longer with blonde highlights, she sat down at the Aladren table for the fourth time. As she watched the first years being sorted, she couldn’t believe how quickly time had passed since it had been her over there. Already her class was at the halfway point in their school career. After this year, it would be all about their futures. First, it would be all about the CATS and how important they were to the two years of their lives after that. Next, it would be all about the RATS and how important they were to their entire lives. What if she didn’t even want a magical career? How important would they be then?

They were the thoughts that she had been having lately. Sure, she was set to become some sort of scientist. Most likely a physicist, but she didn’t know. She hsad always thought it was the only thing in the world that would make her happy, but was it really? The more she thought about her future the more uncertain she became about what she wanted to do for the rest of her life. She kind of wished she could be one of the innocent little first years just waiting for all the magic to begin instead of anxiety of where it would end. She pushed some of her food around on her plate. Maybe she just needed to talk to someone who might understand.
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Daniel Nash

April 06, 2010 11:02 AM
Daniel's summer had differed from his past few summers in one very important respect. Mom had married Anton about two weeks after he and Holly returned from Sonora. So the first two weeks were insane with fittings and flowers and seating arrangements and whatever else it was that had to be done so that the wedding could go off without a hitch.

The studio had been kind enough not to ask for Daniel to do much more than fill out the paperwork for returning to the show during that time. Well, they figured they were being kind. Daniel would have much preferred filming scenes where Nate had to deal with his divorced parents than living the real life scenes himself. Fortunately, Dad wasn't involved in the wedding and Daniel could escape to his house for short periods of time before Mom found him again.

Holly, of course, remained naively optimistic that Anton would actually stick around and made an effort to bond with the guy. Daniel wasn't going to bother, and Mom seemed to think this meant he was being 'moody' and 'unfriendly' though he really really wasn't. He was only being realistic. She didn't accept this explanation, even when Daniel pointed out the empirical proof, and he was sent to his room for the rest of the evening, which honestly? He was perfectly all right with. There weren't any wedding plans going on in his room. If that was the reward, he'd show her 'moody' and 'unfriendly'.

Eventually, the two weeks were over, and Daniel's life returned to normal. Or as normal as Daniel's life ever was. He moved back into his room at Dad's and resumed his role as Nate Bealer. Becky from last year had left the show while he'd been away, so he was the biggest child star on the set again, which was comforting and familiar. Actually, the whole acting thing was starting to feel entirely too comforting and familiar and he was a little worried about his plans for a 'normal' existence when he was done with school.

He was becoming less and less sure that being a nobody accountant was really what he wanted in life. And that terrified him.

He could only hope coming back to Sonora and returning to the role of Aladren student would fix the problem. He parted company from Holly as soon as he could - she was still in the Honeymoon phase of Mom's marriage even if Mom wasn't anymore and being around his sister for any length of time grated on his nerves more than normal - and headed in to the Cascade Hall to take up his position as an Aladren as quickly as possible.

Smiling as he spotted Taylor Li (one of the greatest success stories he'd ever seen of dropping acting in favor of academics), he headed over to join her at the table. "Hey, Taylor," he greeted her.

He didn't ask after her summer because then she'd ask after his, and he wasn't sure he wanted to admit how much he was liking his Nate Bealer role to her. Even redirecting to the wedding wasn't going to work because she'd probably ask after the show since she'd been on it. He needed a much larger redirect, something important enough to bypass the summer entirely. For an Aladren, there was only one thing that big. Well, two, but the CATS came first.

"So," he said, "Fourth years, now. Have you had any CATS nightmares yet? I had one the night after Holly got her scores. I got all A's. It was awful." It was still better than Holly did in reality, but Holly was (a) not an Aladren, and (b) suffering from potion-, history-, and DADA- phobias. Besides which, a failing grade or two was almost better than straight across 'Acceptable'. It gave your report card a little character.

A's were completely and utterly boring. They were the minimum standard and scoring an A only meant you were competent enough not to cause harm to yourself or others when applying the subject. Straight across A's meant a one failed to display any kind of notability in any subject at all.

Maybe it was his own mental issues (with half his genetics coming from the same source as Holly's, he must have some; Paul Greer seemed emotionally stable and even mostly sane so the bulk of his half-sister's mental health problems must come from their shared mother) but he thought having one P and the rest A's was better than all A's. At least then he would have been notable in one of his classes, if only in a bad way.

Given this, Daniel was almost willing to accept that there might have been a kernel of truth to a recent accusation made against him that he was a drama queen. Almost.

However, he still maintained that it was wildly inappropriate to call him that when Holly had been right there in the same room. Relative comparison alone should have precluded him from getting labeled as such.
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Taylor

April 07, 2010 11:06 AM
Hearing her name, Taylor looked up in surprise to see Danny. When they had first started at Sonora, this day exactly, but three years ago, she had been just as surprised to see him then. At the time, she had thought they might become good friends since they had sort of known each other before, but as life had a funny way of not working out the way one wants it to, they had not become that close. She had been busy with trying not to act and, well, science, and he had been busy with acting and, well, Charlotte. Even so, the surprise didn’t last long and a welcoming grin spread across her face, “Hi, Daniel.”

Taylor’s features shifted at the mention of CATS, though, her lips upturned at the idea that Danny would get all A’s. It was impossible for someone in Aladren to get completely negative scores, wasn’t it? They were supposed to be the smart house after all. That had to count for something, but it did little to quench her fears. “Well, I did have a couple. In one I had gotten horrible grades and no one would ever hire me. The other was I got perfect scores and I was forced to stay in the magical world working three different jobs.” There it was. Yes, failing was a fear, but so was succeeding.

Knowing that Danny was probably confused by why completely opposite nightmares scared her, Taylor decided to elaborate, “I don’t want to fail the CATS, but if I do well, I feel obligated to get a magical career. I’m really not sure that’s what I want to do with my life. At first, I wanted to be a scientist and just assumed that there was a magical career somewhere for that, but now I don’t know. It’s not that I don’t love science, but I just don’t think I want to do that for the rest of my life, you know? It’s like a been there, done that, sort of thing.”

She wasn’t sure if she was making any sense or if he really understood. Danny might very well be set for life with acting. Thinking of that, she wondered how everything had gone for him over the summer and that it was rude not to have asked, “So, how was your summer? I saw a couple of episodes of Street Beat. They were repeats. It was weird how…young you looked.” There were other adjectives she wanted to use to describe how he looked then to now. Getting older definitely changed everything.
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Daniel

April 07, 2010 10:56 PM
As Taylor described her nightmares, Daniel found himself - despite her clarifying elaboration - understanding the second dream far more readily than the first. Sure, doing bad on the exams was an obvious nightmare, but not being able to land a job? Daniel couldn't imagine that. He already had a job, one he could continue and do well in as a career even if he completely flunked all of his studies.

Doing too well, though, that he got. It was part of his problem with Street Beat. Or maybe it was part of his non-problem with Street Beat. Because his problem with the show was that he didn't have a problem with the show. And he wasn't supposed to like acting. That was just supposed to be something he did so he didn't get bored over the summer and so he could spend some quality work-time with his father.

And not asking about her summer didn't work. Oh, it distracted the conversation for a little while, but it was the first day back. Of course the first lull was going to bring out that question. Still, he was a good enough actor to keep his heavy sigh unsighed and just grimaced a little at the mention of re-runs. He'd been ten during his first season and though he'd thought he looked pretty mature at the time, now he knew how very very wrong he'd been.

"At least you weren't watching Mom's A Date with Alfred. Talk about baby pictures. I can't watch that movie without cringing." Of course, that was as much because it showed Mom falling in love with Step-Dad Two in it as because it had two scenes with a three year old Danny Nash bawling his eyes out, but that wasn't really the point.

"Anyway, summer was okay. Mom got married again. This one's name is Anton. Michael lasted almost a full year last time, and Anton's already made it past my dad's two months so they're not completely incompatable. And since he's not an actor, they're both starting to get older, and neither of them drink heavily or do drugs, I'm putting my money on a year and half, which will edge out Holly's dad for longest marriage by a couple months."

Daniel shrugged, showing none of the agitation he'd shown to Charlie last year when his mom had merely been engaged. Engaged was the worst because that was when people were so hopeful and words like 'forever' and 'commitment' were thrown around like they actually existed, and people expected him to be happy that his mom was setting herself up for another heartbreak.

This part of the process was much easier because the deed was done and he knew he'd done everything he could have to stop it; now it was their fault for not listening, not his for failing another day to break them apart. He didn't have to be the doomsayer anymore, the one who refused to be excited for the happy couple, as if he was the only one who could see what a huge mistake another wedding was. Now it was over and done with and the only thing left to do was to wait for the inevitable and that needed no help from him. And Daniel wouldn't say I-told-you-so because that would be insult to injury, but he'd think it because he had told them so.

But since Street Beat actually was a preferable subject compared to his mother's marital status, whether he wanted it to be or not, he continued, "After the wedding, I spent most of my time on the show. They're giving me some really great scenes now that I'm older, though I still wish they'd set up the filming schedule so I'm not on set right after Dad has a Half Naked scene." Where 'half' was overly generous on his dad's wardrobe in some of those scenes. "Okay, yes, I'm gonna see it on TV, but I really don't need to be in the same room in person when my dad's making out with someone, you know?" Where 'making out' was about as much of an understatement as a prime-time television show would allow past its censors. A cable prime-time television show. Apparently, the whoever set up the schedule decided that Daniel turning fourteen meant that his eyes no longer had to be protected from content that 'may not be appropriate for children under 13'.

"Other than that, though, the show's going really well. We were picked up for another season and it seems to still be popular in the ratings. I kind of hope it keeps going until seventh year, but if it goes past that, I really don't know what I'm going to do. I only joined the cast so I could spend more time with Dad before I ran off to Sonora. I never wanted to be an actor."

He gave Taylor a sympathetic smile. "I'm kind of in the opposite boat from your scientist plan. Every year I do the show, it seems harder and harder to imagine doing anything else. I remember I used to want to be an accountant - or some magical equivalent - because that was so stable and opposite of everything that an actor's life is. And now I can't see myself there anymore. Not even a little."
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Taylor

April 10, 2010 3:29 PM
Taylor couldn’t help giggling at the idea of Danny as a baby in movies. It was no doubt incredibly embarrassing. Having an album full of them was bad enough and Taylor dreaded the day when she brought a boy home for the first time. She could just imagine her mother bringing out all the albums and subjected the poor boy to endless humiliating pictures. At least, being brought up in the muggle world (and not being on screen), they weren’t moving. Of course, that didn’t stop her from teasing him just a little, “Hmm. Maybe I should add that to Netflix over midterm.” Though, she probably would never actually do it just because it would be too odd to see and think of him as being that young just as it would be to think of him as very old.

Her head tilted slightly at the idea of multiple marriages. She knew that his mom did from all that went around in magazines, tabloids, and the like, but she couldn’t imagine what it must actually be like to have to deal with all of that. It was hard to follow even from someone that lived it. Perhaps, part of it was that she hadn’t. Her parents were still very much in love after all of these years, even if her mom was slightly unhinged on her thoughts of stardom. Sometimes, she wondered why her mother hadn’t just tried to become one herself instead of trying to force it on her, but then sometimes she wondered if her mother had how much different would her life be?

Would she be as cynical as Danny? Actually betting on how long a relationship would last? “Why couldn’t it last? It could actually be love. I mean someone can’t stay with someone else unless it’s really the right person and the only way to find him or her is to keep trying,” Taylor suggested in her own form of logic. At least, it’s the way she saw things, but it wasn’t like she actually knew. She had never had a boyfriend. Merlin, she had never even had a date or been kissed. Maybe she would view things different if she were worldlier like Charlotte with all her boyfriends. She felt a little sorry though for Danny in that respect since he was only one of many, but maybe he expected it.

Taylor gave a sympathetic shudder at the idea of watching his father’s make out scenes and was glad that neither of her parents had gone into such a field. She wouldn’t have wanted to watch her parents making out with other people. It was bad enough when she walked into a room with them all over each other. Disgusting, really, and why she was rather tan from having spent hours on their private beach. She didn’t really want to think about what it must be like to be able to view it in takes and then on the screen over and over again. Ew.

“Maybe you were meant to be an actor. Maybe you’ll be the greatest there ever was. Maybe you’ll be able to be a role model and do some good,” Taylor replied. She didn’t think that wanting to be an actor for the rest of one’s life was neither something bad nor necessarily something unstable. Besides, there was a draw to it, a lure that even she couldn’t deny. “I miss it sometimes.” It had been her mother that had forced it, but now that she had been away from it for a while, she missed it. She hadn’t realized what it was before, but there it was staring her in the face. She missed it.
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Daniel

April 12, 2010 4:27 PM
"Please don't," Daniel requested in a pained voice two shades off begging when Taylor threatened to rent A Date with Alfred, but he was mostly immune to people using that one against him (besides, he'd been two; he couldn't remember filming it and he knew perfectly well he couldn't be held responsible for anything he did at that age) and the protest was largely out of habit. If he really objected to her seeing it, he wouldn't have brought it up.

Her next question hit a far more exposed nerve and his grimace was not at all feigned (though he believed he probably could have masked it if he'd wanted to). He even let out the sigh he'd suppressed earlier. "It can't last because Mom is an Actress. Actors and Actresses don't get to have happy marriages. That's why I never wanted to be one. Every time Mom divorced someone, it was because of her job. Well, except for the time she divorced Dad, but that was because they never should have married in the first place. Dad should have known that even if Mom didn't. But every other time it was because of the job. It's not going to change until she stops playing lead roles in movies and she's not going to do that until she gets too old to keep getting them."

Daniel shook his head, "Anton's at least a camera guy, so acting is only a problem for one of them. Michael was doomed from the start. The only reason that one lasted as long as it did was because, with him filming in Canada, and her on location in the Caribbean, they weren't ever in the same state long enough to sign all the paperwork sooner."

"And if it's not the travel, it's what you see on screen. Mom always does romances of one kind or another, and even when it's not a romance, there's a romantic subplot, so any husband runs the risk, every time he turns on the television, of seeing his wife in bed with another guy. I mean, it was four weeks after my first date with Charlie that I kissed a girl for the first time, and it was on screen with a girl I don't even like. There were six takes before we got it to the director's satisfaction, too, so anyone who knows how it works, knows that what they see in the final show, isn't all that was going on. Plus, Michael met Mom filming a movie with her, so he knows she gets into her roles too much."

"And if it's not the travel or the movies, it's the paparazzi. They love Mom because she's practically guaranteed to marry and divorce, marry and divorce, maybe pop a kid, marry and divorce, and those are the things that sell tabloids. So they'll publish every detail about your life, even just the rumors, and you just have to take it, and wonder if maybe your wife really did leave with Tom Cruise from that party and what they did together."

"And if it's not the travel or the movies or the paparazzi, it's that you can't believe a single thing an actor says. Highly paid actors are as well paid and highly sought after as they are because they're the best damn liars on the planet. It's way too easy for Mom to lie if she thinks a lie serves her purpose better than the truth. I wouldn't believe anything she said if I have even the tiniest reason to doubt her."

The same went double for him, but Taylor didn't need that spelled out for her. If she was naive enough to think it didn't apply to Daniel, he wasn't going to educate her. If she was smart enough to figure it out on her own, it would only be insulting to beat the point over the head. Besides, Daniel didn't like admitting he was liar. It didn't suit his purposes.

"It makes clear communication difficult," he finished, "And a marriage can't last without open communication. So no. I don't think it can last, even if there is love. I'm quite sure Mom and Holly's dad loved each other. I'm reasonably positive Mom and Luke's dad were made for each other. But neither of those worked. This one won't either. The odds are astronomically against it."

"Dad at least avoids the travel and paparazzi as much as he can. The on-screen make-out sessions are rough on him and his secret live-in that I'm not going to say anything else about, but Dad knows better than to get married or do anything that will alert the public to the fact that he's even in a relationship. That one, I can almost almost believe will last, if they can just survive Street Beat ending. As long as that's going on, they're pretty stable. They weathered the big on-screen re-occurring girlfriend fight last summer and they're still together, so Ba- um, so Bee obviously has some pretty significant trust in my dad. But I really don't think Anton has the background and experience to be able to say that yet about my Mom and until he does, I'm not holding my breath that their marriage will last."

Daniel took a few moments to breathe, and then felt it necessary to apologize. "Sorry. Nobody's been listening to me since Anton proposed." He shrugged a little sheepishly, "It just sort of spilled out."

"And please don't say I'm destined to be an actor. I don't want to lead this kind of life. I want to have a marriage that works. I don't want a significant other that I have to hide so I can protect my happiness and my family from the press. The acting's fun, but the side effects aren't worth it. But sometimes I think I might be able to handle being a regular on a television series. Sometimes I think: Dad's doing well now. Same partner for almost six years. That's as stable as I've ever seen before. And then that same cautious part of me that's been saying for years that acting isn't the smart way to go, rears up suddenly and says: This is all you've ever known. Can you really uproot everything and leave this? And I don't know if I can."
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Taylor

April 12, 2010 8:29 PM
For a moment, Taylor was simply stunned over Danny’s outpouring. From his exterior, she never would have guessed at all that was waiting beneath the surface. Some might have viewed Taylor as less compassionate than others, because she wasn’t as friendly, but that wasn’t true at all. She felt for her friend, almost a man lost in a boy. Not knowing what came over her, not thinking about it, she got up from her seat and hugged him sideways, laying her head on his shoulder. The offer of comfort probably did him little good and probably only served to make his girlfriend mad, but she did it anyway just in case it helped a little.

Moving away from him, she took her seat, but held his hand. She spoke calmly in the hopes of not starting an argument, but there were any guarantees when saying things the other party may not want to hear. “Okay, maybe, someone should have listened to you since your mom seems not to settle, but maybe that makes her happy. Maybe being in the spotlight is her love, her lasting relationship. The only thing that should really matter is that she’s happy, right? But that doesn’t mean that people can’t have a lasting relationship and be involved in acting. If they really wanted to be together, it would take a lot of work and, you’re right, communication to make it work.”

She stopped to let him process and to gather up more of her thoughts before continuing, “I won’t deny that it’s probably worse for actors with everything they have to deal with, but they don’t have to believe the paparazzi when it comes to their partners. Being at the heart of gossip themselves should be a good lesson that they shouldn’t be so quick to assume. That maybe they should ask questions of the person rather than of those that just want to destroy for personal gain. You also shouldn’t let others determine what you should or shouldn’t do. You shouldn’t let anything hold you back. Not even fear.”

Taylor was having hard time controlling her voice. She didn’t want to make a scene, but there was just so much passion in it. “If you want to be an actor, be an actor. If you want to do something else, go for it. If you want to have a wife, you can add that to the list too. Besides, I hardly doubt Charlie (or was it Adelita?) is the type to allow you to believe the paparazzi over her or to sit back in the shadows.” She wasn’t sure if he was actually seeing one or the other or something entirely new, but either way he seemed to go for that type of girl and the rule that she stated applied just as easily to whomever it was.
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Daniel

April 13, 2010 4:27 PM
Daniel wasn't quite sure what to make of Taylor giving him a hug. But it was kind of nice and he leaned into a little, for a long as it lasted. Fortunately, it didn't last long enough to get awkward and Taylor moved away before he did anything really horrible like cry or start talking again. Not that he was in any danger of crying. He wasn't upset. At least, not a crying kind of upset.

He was just frustrated and worried and even a little bit angry. And he had been, for most of a year, but Daniel didn't know what else to do with the emotions other than repress them, and he knew that wasn't healthy, but it seemed better than snapping at people who didn't deserve it. So he'd kept it largely to himself, only trying to talk about it once, to Charlie, but he was pretty sure she thought he was freaking out over nothing, so he hadn't said anything else after that.

Holly was useless, of course, because they weren't yet to the stage where she knew he was freaking out because she was too, so he sniped at her (she totally deserved it) until she started avoiding him, which was what he'd been going for. Dad listened, but he didn't get it, and neither did Barry, because Daniel didn't tell them the whole problem, because he didn't want to jinx their relationship by pointing out how very improbable it was that it had lasted this long. And Mom just wasn't listening, and Anton thought Daniel didn't like him because he didn't want to share his Mom with a new step-dad, which was completely not the problem at all.

So Taylor was very much appreciated right up until she started talking. But Daniel made himself listen to her and consider her thoughts because Daniel knew he was too close to see the whole picture. "She's happy now," Daniel answered grudgingly, "But she won't be when it falls apart." The happy-now was not worth the unhappy-later. He'd tried the happy-now thing for the first few step-dads and it only made the unhappy-later worse. This way, there was only unhappy, but the change wasn't nearly as crushing.

But there was something to Taylor's assessment that Mom loved the spotlight. There was no denying that. She had never tried to stay out of the paparazzi's sight like Dad did. She flirted with them, keeping their attention on her almost on purpose. She protected Holly from it because Holly was fragile and couldn't take it. She even diverted them away from Daniel and Luke to a lesser extent, but she made no effort to keep the rest of her life private. She did not shield her husbands. She expected them to swim the tabloid river without her help.

And he completely disagreed with Taylor's belief that actors could have a lasting relationship. He explained why already, so he didn't go into again, but he shook his head in disbelief when she said as much. Ideally, work and communication would make it possible, like she said, but the world was hardly ideal, and trust was so much harder to come by than communication.

Even if Mom only spoke the truth (which Daniel suspected she was as incapable of as he was, not because she was an inherently dishonest person but because she too often believed her own press and didn't always realize she was lying), there was no guarantee people would even believe her. Communication was just hard in a non-ideal world. Daniel had once given contradictory stories to both Mom and Dad about something, fully believing he'd told both of them the whole unfettered truth until they compared notes and demanded a clarification - which was also the whole and unfettered truth, but completely different from the first two versions of it.

Point of view made people unreliable at the best of times. It was so much worse when the same person could shift points of view depending on their mood or their audience. It made things like 'truth' highly suspect, and if you couldn't trust your own words to tell it, how could you possibly believe someone else could?

But maybe that wasn't an actor problem. Maybe that was mentally unbalanced problem. He already knew Holly got that from Mom. He already knew he probably got some of it, as well. Daniel was still doomed, but it was possible he was blaming the wrong root cause.

In which case, it wouldn't matter what he did for a living. The damage was already done.

"That's the problem," he said, in answer to her entreaty that he do what he wanted to do, because he wanted to do it, not because he was afraid to do something else. "I don't know what I want. I don't even know what I'm afraid of. All I know is I'm not dating Charlie anymore. If I ever was, which I'm not sure if I did or not. We had one date that was definitely a date, but it was horrible, and we called things off for the summer, and I don't know if they ever picked up again or not."

He shook his head, to clear it of the confusion that was Charlotte Abbott, "Anyway, she went to the ball with James, so that means it's done, if it ever existed. And even though I danced with her, I'm not dating Adelita, either, because that would just be weird. She's Charlie's best friend." It would be different if he was into Adelita, but he wasn't. She was a nice girl, pretty, and a very good dancer, but she wasn't what he was looking for. Charlie definitely wasn't.

"I don't know what I'm looking for in a date, never mind a spouse - Bloody Merlin, I don't even know if I'm straight - and I don't know what I'm looking for in a career, and I don't know where I'm going or even what I'm trying to avoid." He grimaced and shook his head unhappily. "This is a teen thing, isn't it? Hit puberty and suddenly all your answers are questions. I hate questions. I liked having all the answers."
1 Daniel I'm fairly sure we both do. 130 Daniel 0 5


Taylor

April 22, 2010 5:22 PM
A furrow appeared in Taylor’s forehead when she frowned. She didn’t know what it was like to be a child of divorced parents or what it was like to have stepparents. And she certainly wouldn’t want to add all the drama that acting brought on as the anchovy topping on a liver sundae. All she could do was try to piece together how she might feel with what Daniel was telling her. “Are you worried just about her or about yourself too? Are you scared to like him, because he’s inevitably going to leave?” She bit her lip; worried she was going to far, because it wasn’t as though they were the best of friends where they were able to say anything to each other. But then she supposed everyone started somewhere and the friendship either went one way or another.

She guessed everything in life was like that. It would go one way or another. You could be like her and look towards brighter path or be like Daniel and look to the darker path. Would she be different if she had his life? Probably, she decided. But it didn’t have to stay that way. It was like a lake. It was calm until someone came along and threw a pebble in it causing a ripple effect. Eventually, if one waited long enough, the lake would go back to being calm. Yes, it was forever changed, because that pebble had become part of the lake, but the rippling was gone. People could be like that. They could be forever changed, but they could achieve their calm lake again. Maybe one day he would no longer be rippling.

But apparently there were other changes. She nodded her head about him no longer dating Charlie or having ever dated Adelita, but she couldn’t feign the slight shock of the possibility that he might not be straight. Thankfully, living in California, it was more common and accepted, and she was easily over it and into logical thinking. “Then, maybe you should find some answers. The best way is experimenting. You could try doing something different just as a hobby and as for what your type is, have you tried dating someone else? Or you could try dating a boy if there’s someone that strikes you’re interest.”

Thinking about it, she added, “You could also be bi or maybe you just haven’t hit the point where you’re looking.” Taylor gave a slight shrug of her shoulder. “If it makes you feel better, though, I have no idea about the whole dating thing either. I’ve never had one. I never even thought about guys until recently. It was like one-day they were jushad started there, then bam it suddenly hit me how interesting they were.” It was right after that she had started experimenting with makeup. Like how today she was wearing berry delicious lip gloss.
0 Taylor As long as you're sure. 0 Taylor 0 5