Christmas gift giving had never been such an anxious thing for Freddie. As he and Hana still weren't on good terms, he hadn't had the opportunities he usually had to spy on her and make some mental note about what she might want. As a result, he felt a bit bad about the wooden tea set he'd made her. On the one hand, he'd had plenty of time alone, which lent itself well to completing a task that required as much time and handiwork as the platter, two saucers, and two cups had. He'd begun the project early enough that he was proud to say he'd been able to make something pretty good. But he also didn't really feel like he knew for sure whether Hana would like it at all and that made him nervous.
He was fairly certain the opposite was true as well, although he wasn't really sure whether she'd even get him anything. That, for Freddie, was much less of a concern. He would happily bypass gifts for himself if it meant he and Hana could be a little closer and she was a little more comfortable. After his conversation with Ellie - he hadn't actually ended up telling Anya after all - Freddie felt confident in saying that that was something Hana would have to work through, regardless of anything Freddie himself could do to ease the tension between them. As it turned out, Hana had gotten him a gift, though.
She looked sincerely happy, if surprised, by the tea set, and Freddie did his best to return the favor when he unwrapped his gift from her of a box of bowties. He was actually pretty excited to get to wear them and he was sure he'd have a good time, but it seemed too pointed. The next gift he went to open was from his parents, and he could tell through the wrapping paper that it was a hard box. That was a bit odd, as most of their gifts tended to be more organic, or natural to the area, and they rarely made purchases from stores in further cities. Plastic cases weren't very popular in their little village.
Unwrapping the package from the top with a grateful glance towards his parents before a proper thank you was in order, Freddie stared in shock at what he saw. For one, it was one of the most colorful things he'd ever seen. Through the clear plastic case, Freddie could see dozens of colors of eye shadows, lipsticks, jars of hair wax, nail polish, and more. With misty eyes, Freddie ignored his sister's blanched expression and looked up to his parents, who were holding each other with small smiles, teary-eyed themselves.
"We've known for a while that you liked to wear dresses, and we weren't sure whether you'd want to try other stuff," his father said lightly. "And it's okay if you don't. But we thought you should be able to try if you wanted."
Freddie's mother nodded. "I can show you how to use some of it if you want, or you can wait and have your friends at school help you," she added. "There are other things, too," she said, nodding at some of the softer packages still waiting to be unwrapped.
Freddie stared, not quite numb, but not sure what he was feeling either. The only thing he was sure of was that he wanted to burst with happiness and relief. "You knew," he said softly. It wasn't a question.
His mother smiled warmly. "We knew," she told him.
When the holidays were done, Freddie packed his bag for school with two new skirts, his box of makeup, and some men's shirts with slightly more androgynous and feminine patterns, like flowers, paisleys, and fruit prints. In his white-blonde hair, in honor of his dear friend, he added pastel pink and blue.