Joella Curtis
January 25, 2017 4:48 PM
Wherever I may stand. [tag Jax] by Joella Curtis
“You’re the worst,” Joella told him. But he wasn’t, not by a mile. Away from Sonora he was every inch the perfect boyfriend.She blinked, shaking the daydream out of her mind. Of course, it wasn’t first time she’d caught herself thinking about Alistair Johnson since they’d broken up but this time was different. She wasn’t thinking about him, but it - it being the relationship.
The truth was that Joella was still longing for something more and she hated to admit it even to herself. Was it too much to ask for a real boyfriend? But she didn’t just want a boyfriend, she wanted a particular someone to be that boyfriend.
That was never going to happen, for an abundance of reasons. She was beginning to realise that it wasn’t just Jax who was stopping them from being official, public, whatever. It wasn’t that they were a secret but they didn’t go around blasting out their relationship status. Joella still hadn’t told any of her family about him. She felt rather ashamed of that. But she very much doubted Jax had told his mother about her so she guessed they were even. They weren’t a real couple so they didn’t get to do that kind of thing.
The things they did get to do she very much enjoyed but that didn’t displace the feeling that something was missing. At first she hadn’t even noticed it, too blinded by the fact that she was the lucky girl who got to make out with Jax Donovan on a regular basis. It was certainly a step up from unofficial private boxing tuition, which had felt special too.
She waited for Jax around dinnertime and when she saw him headed to Cascade Hall, she made a move to delay him. Joella wanted to talk to him without Gia and her friends getting in the way.
Joella approached Jax (she still didn’t know what to call him, because friend didn’t suffice anymore but anything else was “a label”) with some trepidation. She’d heard about the incident in Defense Against the Dark Arts and felt concerned. She wasn’t sure how well received her concern would be, however. Jax was a very private person and didn’t appear to share much with anyone besides his sister, although Joella knew better than to be jealous of that relationship. She liked a Jax, a lot, so it was only natural for her to care and want to know that he was okay but sometimes she feared he might think she was prying, or trying to be the girlfriend he’d made it clear he didn’t want.
“Hey,” she smiled. “I, um, are you okay? I heard you, er, didn’t have a great morning.”
It was probably a foolish question. By now he had probably got over whatever it was that had really happened to cause him to walk out of class that morning. If he was still thinking about it, he might be annoyed to find that someone had talked about it since Joella wasn’t in his class so shouldn’t know.
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January 27, 2017 10:22 PM
Wherever I May Roam by Jax Donovan
Jax’s day had been extremely stressful for him and he blamed that mostly on Defense Against the Dark Arts. He knew that Professor Pye had to teach the lesson on the Boggart. It was part of the curriculum, so he couldn’t necessary place all the blame on the professor with this knowledge, but that didn’t stop him from blaming him just a little bit for putting him through that. The staff knew how much stress being a werewolf was for Jax and the secret of it, what if his Boggart had been his secret being revealed? But, Jax knew that he could have opted out of the lesson entirely. Yes it would have been a smear on his record, but he might have been able to discuss doing the lesson in private if it meant keeping his secret.Not that any of that mattered now. Jax knew what his biggest fear was and that was facing the werewolf that had killed his father and attempted to kill him as a small child. His werewolf had also been a fear of others (although Jax suspected they just mimicked his werewolf because that was what they had just seen with his), so his hadn’t stuck out all that much and the reason behind it wouldn’t have mattered. But then Kyte had come around and started talking. Normally, Jax could handle the talk and just let it fall off his shoulder, but he was in a heightened state of anxiety and wasn’t able to ignore the negative comments.
It had not helped that the third year had misunderstood Jax, not once, but twice and in the end, had made such a scene about it. Again, Jax might not have otherwise cared, but with his anxiety high and his anger rising, being called prejudice against anyone and told off in front of some of their classmates for it had set Jax off and he had angrily told off Kyte by revealing the truth about his fear before storming out of the classroom.
After that the day just went longer, even Pye had sought him out to check on him. He really just wanted to find a hole somewhere and be alone for awhile. But he didn’t really have that choice.
He promised Gia that he would show for dinner (his sister worried when he got into these moods) and was on his way into the hall when he was stopped by Joella. Despite their relationship, there had just been too much that day to bring out much of a smile from him. Instead, he gave a sort of half smile, have shrug, half nod in her direction and went to her. A frown appeared on his face at her question. He figured people would talk. Rumors spread quickly throughout this small school. He just wasn’t sure what it was that people were saying.
“I’m guessing you heard about my argument with Collindale?” Jax asked and then shrugged. “It could have been a better morning, but I guess we all have days like this. I’m alright though.” He added, to answer her initial question.
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