Jennifer Zucchero
December 10, 2006 1:08 AM
Going emo, or something [Fifth year girl's dorm] by Jennifer Zucchero
How could a day start off so well, and then end so miserably? Jennifer Zucchero continually asked herself along the walk from muggle studies back to the Crotalus common room. This morning, everything had been fine. Well, maybe not fine, because she had had her initial problem with Jake, what with not knowing what he thought about her, but, no matter how much she had disliked not knowing, this had to be worse. She had officially reached rock-bottom in whatever relationship she and Jake had had. And it was all her fault.Well, perhaps that wasn’t quite true, she amended as she reached the portrait of Gunter, said the password, and climbed inside. He had been a complete bastard about the whole Felipe thing. She’d done nothing to make him think that she felt that way. For Merlin’s sake, he was the one who’d be acting like he was too good for her, with avoiding her and all.
And she could even be angry at Lizzie, for telling him in the first place, even though she could only assume it was done with the best of intentions. She could, but she wouldn’t. Well, not much. She didn’t want to have to deal with Lizzie, no doubt about that, but there was no question about who was to blame for everything that had just occurred: herself.
Where had that come from? That-that bitterness, that cruelty? She just opened her mouth, and out came a comment almost custom-made to destroy any sense of self-worth someone might have had. She didn’t know she could do that. She didn’t know she had it in her to do that.
And, worse, she’d been pleased for a second by his reaction. Pleased! Just the idea that making someone else miserable to appease her own pain would work was shocking, unthinkable. Yet she’d done it anyway, and enjoyed it.
The entire scenario would have been so easy to fix if she’d just taken the time to think. She could have told the truth, she could have told Jake that Felipe was nothing compared to him, at least in her eyes. Maybe that wouldn’t have changed anything, but it surely couldn’t have hurt. But no. Naturally, she had to be bitter and shrewish.
She’d deserved what he said, about being her mother’s puppet. But she wasn’t. She was worse, far worse, than if she’d just been under the control of her mother. No, her mother stood nothing to gain from this, in fact, lost a great deal, even though she would never know. That had been all Jennifer, even if it was a side she’d never known existed.
Finally reaching her own room after what felt like an eternity, she deposited her bag on the floor beside her trunk, then curled up in her bed and started to cry. She wasn’t sure what she was crying the most about; Jake’s spitefulness, the destruction of anything that could have happened between the two of them, or the realization that she wasn’t the good and nice person she’d always thought she was, but, whatever it was that had her in its grip, it was strong. She skipped dinner, just stayed in her room sobbing, and didn’t even notice when someone finally did come back to the dorm.
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Going emo, or something [Fifth year girl's dorm]
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Lily Collins
December 22, 2006 10:30 PM
At least you aren't annoyingly perky... by Lily Collins
Lily had gone from Muggle Studies to the library to find some books on curses. Instead, she'd gotten caught up on some material about how wizarding kind reacted to muggle religious movements. She'd eagerly checked it out. Lily had major problems with religious fanatics and anything that was likely critical of them was okay by her. She hated how religious people acted superior and if people didn't think the way they did, they'd burn in Hell. Lily really didn't care for people acting superior no matter what the reason.After dinner, at which time, she'd managed to read another chapter while she ate, Lily decided to return to her dorm to continue the book. It would probably be a thousand times easier to read in there than anywhere else, she'd reasoned.
Lily entered the room only to find out that she was not alone. There lied Jennifer, on her bed, crying. Lily's mind flashed back to class when her roommate had been so rude to Jake. It had slipped her mind.
Placing her book on her bed, she looked over at the other girl. "Jen, are you all right?" Lily asked.\n\n
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At least you aren't annoyingly perky...
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Jennifer
December 22, 2006 11:34 PM
Glad you find my situation helpful by Jennifer
Jennifer wasn’t sure why, but she was surprised when she heard someone else in the dorm room. She should have known better, really, but it just slipped her mind that there really were other people who were going to come into the room at some point, so this probably hadn’t been the best place to have an emotional meltdown. Still, it was too late now.Unable to identify the voice of the other girl at first, she rolled over onto her other side, then sat up, managing to look relatively calm as she saw it was Lily, if by calm one could merely mean that she’d managed to stop crying. Her eyes were still red, and she probably looked a fright, but she wasn’t crying anymore. That, at least, was a step in the right direction.
“I’m fine,” came the instinctive response as she moved to the edge of her bed, legs dangling over the side. “Really. I’m just-”
Then, Jennifer’s autopilot stopped kicking in, and she realized how badly she was insulting Lily’s intelligence by pretending everything was alright. For the love of Merlin, she had skipped dinner to go cry in her dorm room. Obviously, something was up.
“Actually, no, not really,” she admitted with a shrug, looking up at the other girl. “Jake and I…are having difficulties, I suppose you could say. He seemed to be ignoring me, I asked him what was wrong, he told me not to worry about it, and that probably too busy with my ex-boyfriend that he both seems to think I’m still dating and wasn’t supposed to know about in the first place to bother with him, and then I basically told him Felipe was much better person, and he told me I was my mother’s puppet and stormed out of the classroom. So, yeah, just difficulties.”
She sighed, and then looked down. It helped a little to tell someone about what was going on, even if the situation between her and the Teppenpaw captain had hit an all-time low. Either that, or all the crying had finally done some good. Not that she still didn’t feel miserable, she just now never wanted to leave the room a little less.
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Glad you find my situation helpful
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Lily
December 31, 2006 6:49 PM
I just meant it's natural for people to be unhappy sometime by Lily
Lily raised an eyebrow. "Well then, you have every right to say what you did to Jake. It was just that it didn't sound like you. You are usually nicer than that. I however, would have reacted probably nastier, but I'm not nice." Lily wouldn't have gone snotty, more like sarcastic. "He was asking for it anyway." She actually didn't mind Jake that much. He seemed nice enough for a jock and wasn't an arrogant twit like Stephen Baxter and Ash Craven. Still he'd been rather rude to Jennifer.She wasn't sure what else she could say. Comforting wasn't really Lily's style. The typical "There, there, it's okay" sounded much too hollow. At least Lily was able to tell Jen she was right in saying what she said to Jake. Justification was encouraging even if she couldn't offer Jen much advice. Lily didn't have much experience with the guy problems other than hearing Layla and Ariella whine and act giggly. Most of her own guy problems had to do with thinking certain guys at Sonora were morons. So, hopefully it helped her friend just to talk.
Something else struck Lily just then. "Why did he know anyway?"
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I just meant it's natural for people to be unhappy sometime
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